October 24, 2013

 

            The meat of today’s Gospel from the Catholics (and i like their Bible [not too long ago was the Lord’s Prayer in Luke ending:  Do not subject me to the final test.) was Luke 12 verses something “

 

Jesus said to his disciples:
I have come to set the earth on fire,
and how I wish it were already blazing!
There is a baptism with which I must be baptized,
and how great is my anguish until it is accomplished!
Do you think that I have come to establish peace on the earth?
No, I tell you, but rather division.

 

Lord have mercy. . .

Christ have mercy. . .

 

October 25, 2013

 

            Lots of changes, btw, but ii still feel unworthy of it all you know.

 

January 19, 2014  (i put a couple of the following entries on Facebook)

 

            Did a(nother) clean & sober Zen Bible reading this morning and got this (from 2 Chronicles 30 [ESV]):

 

May the good Lord pardon everyone who sets his heart (see Jeremiah 17:9) to seek God, the Lord, the God of his fathers, even though not according to the sanctuary’s rules of cleanness.

 

          I’ve been wanting to add a few words for a while now:  (This is about my encounter one night which caused me to employ the username "metJesus1999" at a site.)  Maybe it was the physical that made me/makes me worship Him like i have/do (kind of,  because he was so big and so angry, He remains a god among [mere] men [but He couldn’t have stayed hidden like this]).

            Oh yeah, the Hattiesburg American published a letter i wrote that I’m not planning on posting on the (proposed) web-site.  (Complications.  The web-site, not the letter, which I just don’t like.)

 

January 28, 2014

 

Fifty-six 
Those who know do not talk. 
Those who talk do not know. 
Keep your mouth closed. 
Guard your senses. 
Temper your sharpness. 
Simplify your problems. 
Mask your brightness. 
Be at one with the dust of the Earth. 
This is primal union.

He who has achieved this state 
Is unconcerned with friends and enemies, 
With good and harm, with honor and disgrace. 
This therefore is the highest state of man.

            Merge with dust, huh?

 

February 13, 2014

 

            Well, maybe yesterday in the Gospel reading was Jesus saying something like “well has Isaiah prophesied of you, saying

                        (i cheated by looking: )
This people honors me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me;
In vain do they worship me,
teaching as doctrines human precepts.

 

That was my excuse to start this up again, perhaps for the last time.  I just wanted to say that I almost cut my hair and beard today.  I was thinking about going to Father Tommy and saying that I repented, that I was giving myself over to fasting and prayer.  Then I realized it wouldn’t make any difference.

            If I conformed to traditional values nothing would change.  If I don’t conform to traditional values probably nothing will happen, nothing will change.

            I love Kathleen so much I got her flowers and chocolates for tomorrow.  Even if she did pick the flowers up and hand them to me at the grocery store could that have been two days ago?

 

February 21, 2014

 

            Well, I forgive my lack of humility.  I guess I could write this in MS Front Page and not have the “i”s capitalized.  Anyway I opened el ESV up just now (9:41 am) to Psalm 50:12:

 

                        If I were hungry, I would not tell you . . .

 

and thought about all the people who were hungry today (as we like to say [ii didn’t cry]) and felt/feel discouraged.  That was the Lord talking by the way.  Jesus, not God.  He doesn’t not like people going hungry if they don't want to, He hates it.  (Tens of thousands dying every day of hunger?)

            Yeah, right now I feel like verse 16 (But to the wicked God says:  What right have you to recite my statutes or take my covenant on your lips?) is all about me and verse 23 (The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me; to one who orders his way rightly I will show the salvation of God.) scares me.  Though I do like to think I’m quite full of thanksgiving thank you.

            Here’s today’s Gospel reading from www.ucccb.org:

 

                    Gospel MK 8:34-9:1

Jesus summoned the crowd with his disciples and said to them,
“Whoever wishes to come after me must deny himself,
take up his cross, and follow me.
For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it,
but whoever loses his life for my sake
and that of the Gospel will save it.
(me:  that was where Jesus told a crowd to sell what they had, give what they
got to the poor, and come live a life of faith with Him.  And most of the
crowd left.)
What profit is there for one to gain the whole world
and forfeit his life?
What could one give in exchange for his life?
Whoever is ashamed of me and of my words
in this faithless and sinful generation,
the Son of Man will be ashamed of
when he comes in his Father’s glory with the holy angels.”

He also said to them,
“Amen, I say to you,
there are some standing here who will not taste death
until they see that the Kingdom of God has come in power.”

 

Oh yeah, there should be a little action at www.changeitall.me.pn.

Where I’ve only put my essay On the Holy War and my study of the poor and SAFE’s home page.

 

March 25, 2014

 

            From a directed reading (Mark 1 [ESV]):

 

“Behold, I send my messenger before your face, who will prepare your way, the voice of one cryng in the wilderness: ‘Prepare the way of the Lord, make his paths straight.’”

 

            Yeah, I’m pretty sure who my neighbor is, and I’m pretty sure about God’s own doctrine, and my voice certainly is crying in the wilderness (i.e., it is not heard), and it got me thinkin’ (kind of) about how I’ve pretty much claimed to be the Holy Ghost in perhaps one of my Sunday school “lessons”.

            Yeah, when referring to the Christian Trinity I generally say “Holy Ghost” rather than “Holy Spirit”, and not just because I consider God the Holy Spirit (see John 4:24, e.g.).   Yeah, (if anybody read this they’d probably hate how I repeat myself), right now I feel so unholy I’m feeling like maybe all these people are right about me being the antichrist.

            And it made me think (kind of) about writing how, if Jesus were the antichrist, He might prefer going to hell just so people in general would get what they deserve (which is going to hell with Him), and I (kind of) thought that my message is so rejected that people are in fact going to go to hell rather than listen to my simple message.  Ain’t that hard-hearted?  Yeah, Psalm 50:16 is directed toward people in general, not just me.

            And just a little further in Mark we find Jesus, at the beginning of His ministry, saying

 

“The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand; repent and believe in the gospel.”

 

            Yeah, (just to repeat myself), the good news is that we as a people could get back where we started (heaven!) and the hardest thing we have to do is redistribute the wealth, i.e., shelter and feed everybody.

            Of course Jesus wanted the wealth redistributed.  Of course that was His primary vision, that humankind could get back where it started.  Of course it’s all been said and all I can do is repeat myself and I’m tired of doing that.  So maybe this really is the end.  Maybe I’m even through posting my website on the ‘Net, just about one lousy page at a time.

            As Joe Cocker said on Mad Dogs and Englishmen, “Change it all, change it all.”

 

March 27, 2014

 

            Well, ii couldn’t resist putting to day’s Catholic scriptures online:

 

Thursday of the Third Week of Lent
Lectionary: 240

Reading 1JERemiah 7:23-28

Thus says the LORD: 
This is what I commanded my people:
Listen to my voice;
then I will be your God and you shall be my people.
Walk in all the ways that I command you,
so that you may prosper.

But they obeyed not, nor did they pay heed.
They walked in the hardness of their evil hearts
and turned their backs, not their faces, to me.
From the day that your fathers left the land of Egypt even to this day,
I have sent you untiringly all my servants the prophets.
Yet they have not obeyed me nor paid heed;
they have stiffened their necks and done worse than their fathers.
When you speak all these words to them,
they will not listen to you either;
when you call to them, they will not answer you.
Say to them:
This is the nation that does not listen
to the voice of the LORD, its God,
or take correction.
Faithfulness has disappeared;
the word itself is banished from their speech.

 

      (me:  i think i said earlier the question Jesus asked in Luke 18:8b [Nevertheless, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on earth?] was rhetorical.  generally speaking.  like i say Jeremiah was not just preaching about his day, but also prophesying about Jesus' day and also to day [and me] when the Lord told him "When you speak all these words to them, they will not listen to you either; when you call to them, they will not answer you."  generally speaking.)

 

Responsorial Psalm PSalm 95:1-2, 6-7, 8-9

 

Response:  If today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts.
Come, let us sing joyfully to the LORD;
let us acclaim the Rock of our salvation.
Let us come into his presence with thanksgiving;
let us joyfully sing psalms to him.
R. If today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts.
Come, let us bow down in worship;
let us kneel before the LORD who made us.
For he is our God,
and we are the people he shepherds, the flock he guides.
R. If today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts.
Oh, that today you would hear his voice:
“Harden not your hearts as at Meribah,
as in the day of Massah in the desert,
Where your fathers tempted me;
they tested me though they had seen my works.”
R. 
If today you hear his voice, harden not your hearts.

 

Gospel LuKe 11:14-23

 

Jesus was driving out a demon that was mute,
and when the demon had gone out,
the mute man spoke and the crowds were amazed.
Some of them said, “By the power of Beelzebul, the prince of demons,
he drives out demons.”
Others, to test him, asked him for a sign from heaven.
But he knew their thoughts and said to them,
“Every kingdom divided against itself will be laid waste
and house will fall against house.
And if Satan is divided against himself, 
how will his kingdom stand?
For you say that it is by Beelzebul that I drive out demons.
If I, then, drive out demons by Beelzebul,
by whom do your own people drive them out?
Therefore they will be your judges.
But
if it is by the finger of God that I drive out demons,
then the Kingdom of God has come upon you. 
(me:  i said this might be the most poignant verse in Scripture; see also last picture on first Chapter 17)
When a strong man fully armed guards his palace,
his possessions are safe.
But when one stronger than he attacks and overcomes him,
he takes away the armor on which he relied
and distributes the spoils.
Whoever is not with me is against me,
and whoever does not gather with me scatters.
” (emphasis mine)

 
 

March 29, 2014

 

            From to day's first Catholic reading (Hosea 6:6):

 

[I]t is love that I desire, not sacrifice,
and knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings.

   

 

              The New King James Version goes:

 

                        For I desire mercy and not sacrifice, and the knowledge of God more than burnt offerings.

 

            Matthew 9:13a (ESV) says:

 

Go and learn what this means,  desire mercy, and not sacrifice. (emphasis mine)

 

            And Matthew 12:17 (ESV) says:

 

And if you had known what this means, ‘desire mercy, and not sacrifice,’ you would not have condemned the guiltless.  (emphasis mine [and remember we the people condemned God's prophets and Jesus Himself])

 

Let me just say that Jesus said,

 

Go and learn what this means:  ‘I desire mercy and not sacrifice, and the knowledge of God more than tithing all of your income.

 

And what's more, i can tell you where to learn it.  (on this [would-be] website)

 

(later)

            See also Matthew 23:23 (KJV), no check out the whole chapter and realize this was addressed (and might well be addressed to day) to the leaders and big dogs of organized religion (and probably to no small extent most of the members of said religion[s]):

 

                           Woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye pay tithe of mint and anise and cummin, and have omitted the weightier matters of the law, judgment, mercy, and faith: these ought ye to have done, and not to leave the other undone. 

 

            Yeah, just look at the lack of judgment and mercy toward desperately poor people in the world today.  Especially the really rich people who tithe of luxuries while those in the bottom fifty percent who tithe probably give of their living, like the widow and the two mites.  The Hattiesburg American printed a letter recently that said the poorest Americans have more than 70% of the world’s population.  I said that the poorest Americans are destitute and homeless but for the most part can get one meal a day anyway.  That might show how bad it is in the world.  That’s what it looks like the situation will be when Jesus is revealed in glory.  And don’t forget He’s gonna be looking for judgment and mercy/active love of all the neighbors in the world, and faith that can move mountains.  What if Paul was speaking for Jesus in 1 Corinthians 4:21, when he said, "What will ye? shall I come unto you with a rod, or in love, and in the spirit of meekness?"  What will ye?  That’s why it looks, to me anyway, that we need to change it all. 

            (And, not just to lighten up a little, it's probably another delusion of mine, but lately it seems i've been seeing signs, albeit very small ones, of change taking place.)

 

April 4, 2014

 

Fifty-two
 

The beginning of the universe 
Is the mother of all things. 
Knowing the mother, one also knows the sons. 
Knowing the sons, yet remaining in touch with the mother, 
Brings freedom from the fear of death. 
Keep your mouth shut, 
Guard the senses, 
And life is ever full. 
Open your mouth, 
Always be busy, 
And life is beyond hope.

Seeing the small is insight; 
Yielding to force is strength. 
Using the outer light, return to insight, 
And in this way be saved from harm. 
This is learning constancy.


Fifty-three 

If I have even just a little sense, 
I will walk on the main road and my only fear 
will be of straying from it. 
Keeping to the main road is easy, 
But people love to be sidetracked. 
When the court is arrayed in splendor, 
The fields are full of weeds, 
And the granaries are bare. 
Some wear gorgeous clothes, 
Carry sharp swords, 
And indulge themselves with food and drink; 
They have more possessions than they can use. 
They are robber barons. 
This is certainly not the way of Tao.

April 6, 2014

 

            There’s a website which purports that two women in maybe Spain receive a message each month from Mary, the mother of Jesus.  You, like me, can receive the messages from said website (which apparently sells stuff and also solicits donations), twice a month, in the form of e-mails.  They are generally rather humbling messages, and to day’s was no exception.  Here’s a copy of the entire e-mail, which, if you don't have Courier on your computer, might be smaller than it is on mine:

 

                        Peace to All! Below, please find the English translation of Our Lady's April 02, 2014 message given to Mirjana.

Our next mailing will be Our Lady's
April 25, 2014 message given to Marija.

God Bless!
Steve and Ana Shawl
The Medjugorje Web
http://www.medjugorje.org
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Our Lady's April 02, 2014 Message to Mirjana

"Dear children, with a motherly love I desire to help you with your life of prayer and penance to be a sincere attempt at drawing closer to my Son and His divine light - that you may know how to separate yourselves from sin. Every prayer, every Mass and every fasting is an attempt at drawing closer to my Son, a reminder of His glory and a refuge from sin - it is a way to a renewed union of the good Father and His children (me:  i call His children angels, non-sentient beings, except when Jesus came in the form of a sentient being, a man). Therefore, my dear children, with hearts open and full of love, cry out the name of the Heavenly Father (me:  i'm not sure about what His name is) that He may illuminate you with the Holy Spirit. Through the Holy Spirit you will become a spring of God's love. All those who do not know my Son, all those thirsting for the love and peace of my Son, will drink from this spring. (me:  note that those who do not know the Son will also drink from the spring, according to this message, and that this spring promises to be blesssing or curse, depending on your relationship with the Holy Ghost [and Jesus and God])  Thank you. Pray for your shepherds. I pray for them and I desire that they may always feel the blessing of my motherly hands and the support of my motherly heart."



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        Another good sermon from Darryl (Craft at Temple Baptist in Hattiesburg MS) to day.  He talked about the end of the age, “the end,” he said, when Jesus will be revealed in glory to judge the living and the dead.  He said the resurrection of Jesus should give us all a life mission.  He read from Matthew 28, where Jesus said (to the disciples, some of whom still doubted [verse 17 says, "And when they saw him they worshipped him, but some doubted."which should give all of us pause] to make disciples of all nations, teaching people to be obedient to His commandments.  He also referenced Isaiah 9, which I read again.  From that chapter (ESV) is:

 

The people who walked in darkness have seen a great light; those who dwelt in a land of deep darkness, on them has light shined.

 

            Unfortunately that chapter also contains, three times, the sentence (which appears five times in Isaiah)

 

For all this his anger has not turned away, and his hand is stretched out still.

 

April 14, 2014

 

            My Bible reading the other day led me to the last chapter of Isaiah, which includes (ESV):

 

For behold, the Lord will come in fire, and his chariots like the whirlwind, to render his anger  in fury, and his rebuke with flames of fire.

For by fire will the Lord enter into judgment, and by his sword, with all flesh; and those slain by the Lord shall be many.

 

            i looked, and this is in my study of Judgment Day.  Maybe the reason ii’m writing this is I’m simply obsessed, but check out the first two Catholic readings for to day:

 

            Reading 1  ISaiah 42:1-7

Here is my servant whom I uphold,
my chosen one with whom I am pleased,
Upon whom I have put my Spirit;
he shall bring forth justice to the nations,
Not crying out, not shouting,
not making his voice heard in the street.
A bruised reed he shall not break,
and a smoldering wick he shall not quench,
Until he establishes justice on the earth;
the coastlands will wait for his teaching.

Thus says God, the LORD,
who created the heavens and stretched them out,
who spreads out the earth with its crops,
Who gives breath to its people
and spirit to those who walk on it:
I, the LORD, have called you for the victory of justice,
I have grasped you by the hand;
I formed you, and set you
as a covenant of the people,
a light for the nations,
To open the eyes of the blind,
to bring out prisoners from confinement,
and from the dungeon, those who live in darkness.

 

(me:  of course this reminds me of the reading just the other day, which included “When you speak all these words to them,
they will not listen to you either;
when you call to them, they will not answer you.
”)

Responsorial Psalm   PSalm 27:1, 2, 3, 13-14

Response. (1a) The Lord is my light and my salvation.
The LORD is my light and my salvation;
whom should I fear?
The LORD is my life’s refuge;
of whom should I be afraid?
R. The Lord is my light and my salvation.
When evildoers come at me
to devour my flesh,
My foes and my enemies
themselves stumble and fall.
R. The Lord is my light and my salvation.
Though an army encamp against me,
my heart will not fear;
Though war be waged upon me,
even then will I trust. 
R. The Lord is my light and my salvation.
I believe that I shall see the bounty of the LORD
in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD with courage;
be stouthearted, and wait for the LORD.
R. 
The Lord is my light and my salvation.

 

            And then there was the Gospel reading (John 12:1-11), which includes

 

Mary took a liter of costly perfumed oil
made from genuine aromatic nard
and anointed the feet of Jesus and dried them with her hair;
the house was filled with the fragrance of the oil. 
Then Judas the Iscariot, one of his disciples,
and the one who would betray him, said,
“Why was this oil not sold for three hundred days’ wages
and given to the poor?”

 

which at least lends credence to my theory that Jesus and His disciples were trying to redistribute the wealth.  And there are plenty of examples of them going hungry.  (ii am doing more food fasting and praying, btw; now that I’ve bragged I’ll probably backslide worse huh?)

Oh yeah, about that reading in Isaiah 66, my Bible has the heading “Final Judgment and Glory of the Lord”.  Reminds me of Luke 21:22 (KJV):  “For these be the days of vengeance, that all things which are written may be fulfilled.”  (see scriptural study of Judgment Day)

 

April 16, 2014

 

            Well, I feel compelled to put another entry in this would-be journal.  I’m also compelled (again) to abandon this would-be website.  https://secure.freehostingeu.com/signup-page.php is where i started posting this.  (Word put the lower-case “I” [and that upper-case “I”] I don’t know why.)  Anyway, this freehostingeu.com has a neat file manager that let’s you upload lots of files at one time, so my plan now is to put the whole website up (i'm changing the font size on all the pages is one reason it's been so slow) but not make public the journal contents page for the original SAFE, e.g., but rather give one person anyway the urls for the whole website in case I die and the world doesn’t end so he can make the whole site available for what it’s worth because I believe more words count less and the only things I really want people to read are the excerpts from Stephen Gaskin’s first book and the excerpts from Lao Tsu and I’ll leave up those pages from my ([At Least] Maybe) Some of God’s Doctrine (or whatever I called it) page.  The rest of it is excess baggage.  (That phrase I stole from Lao Tsu.)

            Oh yeah, I did want to share some more Bible readings.  That’s what compelled me to add to this excess baggage.  The first Catholic reading today I noticed was a virtual repeat from the Sunday mass, except it was one-and-a-half verses longer.  I’ll just go ahead and put it in here (along with some more excess baggage in the form of comments):

 

                        Reading 1  ISaiah 50:4-9A

The Lord GOD has given me 
a well-trained tongue,
That I might know how to speak to the weary
a word that will rouse them. 
(Here is my revolutionary tendency, my desire to speak to the wretchedly poor a word that will rouse them to revolt.  [Now I’ve decided to put one more chapter from the original journal (and I’m gonna put up my epilogue to that journal also) that has the first letter to a newspaper I wrote since it's kind of revolutionary (though i didn't sign it and it wasn't printed, and I’m gonna post at least one recent letter to an editor too, despite the fact that more words count less) and maybe I’ll find and post the entry that says something like “The amazing thing to me is that the great mass of wretchedly poor people aren’t angry about the status quo.”.  AnywayJ [a smiley face popped up when I put a colon followed by a close-parentheses mark and I want all hypocrites to know this is my way of saying “Kiss my ass” (I almost wrote “Kill [me]”)]:
Morning after morning
he opens my ear that I may hear; 
(If I didn’t think God led me to these scriptures I wouldn’t be writing this now.)
And I have not rebelled,
have not turned back. 
(I’ve certainly said before that I am perhaps the chief sinner in the world, that I’ve turned my back to Jesus’ commandments [and I certainly still struggle with them].)
I gave my back to those who beat me,
my cheeks to those who plucked my beard;
My face I did not shield
from buffets and spitting.
(This has been true long after I wrote in that original Chapter 17 that I was tired of laying my body in the street for people to walk on and that I was gonna start asking for God’s vengeance on them.)
The Lord GOD is my help,
therefore I am not disgraced;
I have set my face like flint,
knowing that I shall not be put to shame. 
(I still feel disgraced; I still feel ashamed.)
He is near who upholds my right;
if anyone wishes to oppose me,
let us appear together.  
(I put this verse up somewhere, sometime, after I had denigrated someone on SAFE Continued; I’m also not gonna post the entry where I malign a rich man from my home town mostly because for all I know he has given 90% [ninety percent] of his wealth to www.heifer.org and there’s the whole “more words count less” thing too.)
Who disputes my right?
Let him confront me.
See, the Lord GOD is my help;
who will prove me wrong? 
(The guy who put the shingles on our roof after the tornado proved me wrong when I confronted him about the work he did but he escaped on a technicality; right now I’m reading this as my right to profess God’s own truths.)

 

            Here’s the responsorial Psalm from to day (the space is because Jesus in the King James version uses the space like this, like it’s a salute to light as well as a reference to now, today):

 

                        Responsorial Psalm PSalm 69:8-10, 21-22, 31 AND 33-34

R. (14c) Lord, in your great love, answer me.
For your sake I bear insult,
and shame covers my face.  (
me:  true about me to day)
I have become an outcast to my brothers,
a stranger to my mother’s sons,
because zeal for your house consumes me,
and the insults of those who blaspheme you fall upon me.  (
me:  true about me to day [at least] mostly__and i also take the last part to mean those who blaspheme me blaspheme God)
R. Lord, in your great love, answer me.
Insult has broken my heart, and I am weak,
I looked for sympathy, but there was none;
for consolers, not one could I find.
Rather they put gall in my food,
and in my thirst they gave me vinegar to drink.  (
me:  true about me to day)
R. Lord, in your great love, answer me.
I will praise the name of God in song,
and I will glorify him with thanksgiving:
“See, you lowly ones, and be glad;
you who seek God, may your hearts revive!
For the LORD hears the poor,
and his own who are in bonds he spurns not.”  (
me:  the Lord will hear the poor [at least] when Jesus is revealed in glory)
R. 
Lord, in your great love, answer me.

 

            I’m gonna put the Gospel reading in just because ii want to comment on it:

 

                        Gospel MatThew 26:14-25

One of the Twelve, who was called Judas Iscariot, 
went to the chief priests and said,
“What are you willing to give me
if I hand him over to you?”
They paid him thirty pieces of silver,
and from that time on he looked for an opportunity to hand him over.

On the first day of the Feast of Unleavened Bread,
the disciples approached Jesus and said,
“Where do you want us to prepare
for you to eat the Passover?”
He said,
“Go into the city to a certain man and tell him,
‘The teacher says, “My appointed time draws near; 
in your house I shall celebrate the Passover with my disciples.”‘“
The disciples then did as Jesus had ordered,
and prepared the Passover.

When it was evening,
he reclined at table with the Twelve.
And while they were eating, he said, 
“Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.”
Deeply distressed at this,
they began to say to him one after another,
“Surely it is not I, Lord?”
He said in reply,
“He who has dipped his hand into the dish with me
is the one who will betray me.
The Son of Man indeed goes, as it is written of him,
but woe to that man by whom the Son of Man is betrayed.
It would be better for that man if he had never been born.”
Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply,
“Surely it is not I, Rabbi?”
He answered, “You have said so.”
  (me:  [sometimes Word wants to capitalize “me”]  not only do I feel generally betrayed [karma:  I’ve betrayed everybody I know one way or another]  i think the disciples were in the dark about this [who the betrayer was] until after the betrayal)

 

            Here’s what prompted this entry:  Kathleen wasn’t ready for the Catholic scriptures so I picked up a daily devotion book [that I’m not really crazy about] and read the devotion and got my Bible to look up the three verses at the bottom of the page and read the first verse and Kathleen muted the television and I told her “That was an angel talking to Isaiah when he had a vision and a visitation” and then read to her:

 

1In the year that King Uzziah died I saw the Lord sitting upon a throne, high and lifted up; and the train of his robe filled the temple.   2Above him stood the seraphim. Each had six wings: with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew.   3And one called to another and said:

    

“Holy, holy, holy is the Lord of hosts;

              the whole earth is full of his glory!”

  

4And the foundations of the thresholds shook at the voice of him who called, and the house was filled with smoke.   5And I said: “Woe is me! For I am lost; for I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the Lord of hosts!”

  (that's how i felt, as i guess i said in my first [would-be] sermon)

6Then one of the seraphim flew to me, having in his hand a burning coal that he had taken with tongs from the altar.   7And he touched my mouth and said: “Behold, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away, and your sin atoned for. 

 (let it be about me is my prayer)

Isaiah’s Commission from the Lord

   (that's from QuickVerse's ESV)

8And I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?” Then I said, “Here am I! Send me.”   9And he said, “Go, and say to this people:

    

‘Keep on hearing, but do not understand;

              keep on seeing, but do not perceive.’

  10    Make the heart of this people dull,    

  and their ears heavy,

              and blind their eyes;    

  lest they see with their eyes,

         and hear with their ears,

         and understand with their hearts,

         and turn and be healed.

  

11    Then I said, “How long, O Lord?”

    And he said:  “Until cities lie waste

    without inhabitant,

    and houses without people,

    and the land is a desolate waste,

               (emphasis added; that’s where I quit reading and told Kathleen something like “That’s the day[s] of vengeance”)

            That’s the way my QuickVerse formatted the ESV (kind of).  I’ll go on and put the rest that I read:  The second verse was 2 Corinthians 5:7 (We walk by faith, not by sight.) which I’ve addressed before, but here’s what I read:

 

So we are always of good courage.  We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight.  Yes, we are of good courage, and we would rather be away from the body and at home with the Lord.  So whether we are at home or away, we make it our aim to please him.  For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, (here ii said “Remember my fear of the Lord letter to the editor?” and that’s where I quit reading but I’ll add the end of the verse here:)  so that each one may receive  what is due for what he has done in the body; whether good or evil.

 

            The last verse was 1 Thessalonians 5:18, which I read and then backed up and commented on verses 16 and 17 being two- and three-word verses, followed by verse 18, in one sentence.  This might be where I end my journal (and this is for believers only):

 

Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

 

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