. . . . . Well, keep trying to shut this (would-be) journal down, and it keeps poppin' back up. Went to the doctor's the other day, and sat down and picked up a Bible perhaps right after an older woman sitting with another older woman and man said (about me . . . I know ;-( . . .) "Isn't that something?" like wasn't I some kind of amazing that I was allowed out without my keepers or whatever and I looked at the guy and said "God is great" and then I said "Allah akbar(sp?)" and maybe then picked up the Bible and opened it to:
and naturally I was tempted to read some, but restrained myself for a million reasons I guess, mostly because i was thinking these people are totally out of the loop of God's reality. No clue. Nothin' but the dead and dyin' back in my little town, as Paul Simon wrote and sang so long ago. Dead people walkin' for the most part, and no clue. Strongly deluded many of them into thinking they are among God's elect. And they're just like the person I saw on the university campus the other night.
. . . . . She was braggin' about paying like $650 for her car tag and making it sound like she was complaining. And she was directing the comment right at me, sitting maybe three feet away from where she's standing and looking at me and actually directing her talk at me while she's pretending to talk to somebody else. I guess everybody's been there huh? Anyway, I give it a little thought and say "If the guy who had run for governor promising ten dollar car tags had been a republican instead of a democrat, he'd have been elected." And I wished I'd said "if he'd run as a republican he'd have been elected and it wouldn't have mattered if he really was a democrat" just to make more pointed my assertion that this (would-be) lady and most everybody she knows who isn't an angel, dark or light don't matter, most everybody around here who gives me this bad vibe which is a whole lot of people let me tell you, the place in the New Testament my Bible reading ending yesterday and started today is relevant to their reality whether they like it or not and it reminded me of her and them enough that I felt it appropriate to add to el (wud-be) journal and here it is:
and I'm sure the people who belong on the first image (and the second) will leap at verse 18 on the second, actually jump hard with both feet and say "he wants to have a relationship with a woman which is just the same as being married!!!" and I'm hopeful God and Jesus will be knowing that they are straining at a gnat while they continue to swallow camels. And relish them. Of course. Who wants to admit to themselves that their life is a lie, that everything they value is like less than nothing, it's dangerous to their eternal reality? Get real huh?
. . . . . Maybe this is the end. For real. There's more of course, but it's kind of the same too. But since I've done it before, I'm gonna leave the last bit of the last two chapters maybe at the bottom here:
. . . . . Anyway, the reason I came back to this . . . obsession with this (would-be) journal is because I was listening to a Grateful Dead soundboard from 1977 and opened my Companion Bible (rather Zen fashion, listening to "Fire On the Mountain") to the Sermon on the Mount. Matthew 5:9 says "Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God." Bullinger's note says: "peacemakers. Cp. Ps. 133.1. Gr. eirenopoios. Occ. only here." Psalms 133:1, of course, is "Behold, how good and pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity!" The margin note there says in part: 'unity=one. The reference is to the "one man" of 2 Sam. 19.14 (David), and the "one heart" of 2 Chron. 30.12 (Hezekiah).' See, it's all so simple! We are to have the mind of Christ (or pick a prophet huh?), His "single eye" say, of Matthew 6:22 e.g., with which we merely love God with all our heart, and with all our soul, and with all our mind and all our strength and love everybody else like we love ourselves. Just nothing to it huh?
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