A Journal, Chapter 18  (how to read the Bible, etc.)

. . . . . Let's just do it: "The Lord is my shepard". That's far enough. The shepard's job is to take care of the sheep, herding them to pasture and water and rest while also guarding them from danger. The sheep don't have to do anything but follow the shepard. But don't take my word on it. Let's see, but i've been like obsessively making all these notes on a chapter 18 of the (would-be[-ended long ago]) journal that won't seem to die so i'm gonna stuff it all here on the same page and (hopefully) be done with it.

. . . . . At any rate, it was an innocuous enough column that precipitated this letter to the editor (see below; i addressed it to the guy who wrote the column) by the way. If you read the letter you'll get a glimpse or two of it. I hope I still have a copy of it, i'll post it. I used to enjoy this guy's columns mostly, and there was nothing (i fear) at all controversial or distasteful about it in societal terms. Aye, there's the rub i think i heard somewhere. It rubbed me the wrong way apparently, though I clearly recall thinking Joe would probably understand that the stridency was merely for effect, that I was a fan of his, and meant nothing personal by what could be construed as a vicious personal attack. And again, for emphasis, let me point out that it is the society I intend to attack in the letter, the system that allows such injustices to remain the de facto law of the land for uncounted generations. (And here naturally I refer not to ameriKa but the woRld [almost acrostic interpretation: "wrong Lord"].) I did (as i mention in the letter) send copies around, even posted one at the student union on the USM campus in Hattiesburg.

. . . . . Oh yeah, the page numbers were not on the original, causing me a lot of problems when I was trying to put the scans together. And they don't matter here, i know, but it's the way i used to number pages on typewriters sometimes and i think they look cool. I put one correction in the text, italicized and in parentheses. also should note that the Bible does not say there is no secret thing, just that all the secret things will be known.  And I can't be sure but I imagine if I could have emphasized stuff like colors and italics and bold type and stuff I probably would have. (Really glad i couldn't do it then; the guys in white coats would surely have been there. I mean, like just a day after he got the letter I guess, a vacation announcement for Joe appears. Prob'ly telling me he could care less about me putting down the ameriKan dream, vacation included.)



 

October 18, 1985

Joe Rogers

c/o The C1arion-Ledger
P.O. Box '+0
Jackson, MS 39205

Hey Joe,

. . . . . Don't worry, Joe. It's definitely not just you (in regard to your column in today's paper). I'm pretty sure it's every American who is at least too secretive for their own good. And the worst thing about it is not just that there is no secret thing, as the Bible clearly states (and that there is a God is a determination that is ultimately left to the individual doesn't alter the reality of our situation), but also that Americans (and too many people of every other nationality) are and have been secretive about all the wrong things.

. . . . . If Americans want to be secretive about anything (and most people are self-serving about their secretiveness in a very small-minded way) they should have picked their lifestyle (I guess I will use the third person as you did, though I certainly haven't fit your "people" category) and they should have started a long time ago, 1950 anyway, to try and keep any kind of general awareness about a society that can bring such phrases as "conspicuous consumption" and"planned obsolescence" into the lexicon. (should have continued with "from being spread about" or something)

. . . . . Consider the King James version of some of Jeremiah 5: "They are waxen fat, they shine: yea, they overpass the deeds of the wicked: they judge not the cause, the cause of the fatherless, yet they prosper; and the right of the needy do they not judge. Shall I not visit for these things? saith the LORD: shall not my soul be avenged on such a nation as this?"

. . . . . Maybe the grace and truth of the new testament of Jesus strikes you as more relevant: "And in them is fulfilled the prophecy of Esaias, . . . for this people's heart is waxed gross, and their ears are dull of hearing, and their eyes they have closed; lest at any time they should see with their eyes, and hear with their ears, and should understand with their heart, and should be converted, and I should heal them." (The words of Jesus recorded in Matthew 13.)

 

 

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. . . . . So now Americans have allowed satellite dishes in Africa to beam maybe even "Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous" for people to feed their desires on, as widespread famine and mass starvation ravage the land; and our next-door neighbors in Mexico, while witnessing a flight from real poverty and deprivation in the countryside, a desperate flight from the frying pan into the raging fire of need surrounding Mexico City (a flight perhaps not unprecedented except for its magnitude), can watch the Ewings and their "friends" wallow in luxury and chlorinated swimming pools in Dallas, Texas.

. . . . . Do you want to know what "dangerous territory" really is, Joe? It is eternal darkness. Forever misery, wailing, gnashing of teeth. (More Bible stuff, for the information of the unlearned.) Drawing a paycheck: nevermore.

. . . . . The danger here and now is that the truth is out. Lao Tsu, the founder of Taoism, said "The way of heaven is to take from those who have too much, and give to those who do not have enough. Man's way is different." One of the dangers is that there are a lot of hungry people "out there" who are also sick of injustice and are not above using the same amoral and immoral means which too many of those who have too much today used to get it, in an effort, however misguided, to right the maldistribution of wealth we see. Who's got the plutonium?

. . . . . The clear and present danger today was touched upon by William Faulkner in his Nobel prize acceptance speech when he said he thought mankind would not just survive, but prevail. In "Wealth vs. Riches", (a portion of his book Does It Matter?) Alan Watts said that if we would just realize how wealthy we are, we would no longer concern ourselves with the acquisition of riches. "It is the invariable lesson to humanity that distance in time . . . lends focus," Isaac Asimov wrote. "It is not recorded, incidentally, that the lesson has ever been permanently learned."

. . . . . Have I made my point? At the risk of appearing vindictive, let me continue. Your editorial was dangerous. It promulgates an attitude about money that horribly exemplifies the Apostle Paul's admonition (in I Timothy 6) that "the love of money is the root of all evil" if only because you write of "a new house, automobile, stereo or some such I've managed to get my hands on" WHILE PEOPLE STARVE.

. . . . . Here's where you legitimately should ask me what I'm doing. So if you're interested, keep reading and Ill try to tell you. I'm taking a stand. I will not be shipwrecked on a vain reality is how Thoreau put it. "To be spiritually minded is life and peace" is how Paul wrote it in Romans 8. And anyone who is spiritually minded must put the well-being of everyone on the planet on an equal basis or there are no reasons to hope that mankind can prevail.

 

 

 

 

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. . . . . All of the worlds religions address the renunciation of desire. "Open thine eyes, and thou shalt be satisfied with bread." (Proverbs 20:13) "Give us this day our, daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil:" is part of the prayer Jesus gave us in the sermon on the mount, where he continued (in small part) "lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth . . . but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven . . . Ye cannot serve God and money."

. . . . . I know this is still preaching, as opposed to telling you of my personal practices, but I an practicing what I'm preaching (and I'm doing a lot of that) and so here's one that's real good for both of us: "I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment. For by thy words thou shalt be justified, and by thy words thou shalt be condemned." That's Matthew 12:36, 37, and in the margin I have written "& of course thoughts count too" (from Matthew 5:28 et al) and our actions are the cause and effect, reap as ye sow, semi-scientifically-proven in-the-material-world laws (with apology for the less-than-clear-thinking coming through in the writing, but I suppose I will sleep tonight, and I hope we will all be changed tomorrow).

. . . . . Anyway, I'm living in a rented trailer, and I've never made $10,000 (ten thousand dollars) a year in my life, and I'm not making much money now, and I suppose the biggest vanity in my life now is this '54 Chevy pickup I might have $750 in laying mostly disassembled around the trailer that I've been using as an escape for several months putting a lot more work than money in and if I were to have a garage sale/auction of all my worldly possessions I might be lucky to walk away with $2,000 (two thousand dollars) and I'll put that old truck (not included in the sale) up as a tax-deductible toy to anyone who will write a check to Live Aid or Unicef or Care (definitely not the United Way) that is a similar sacrifice and I'll volunteer to have my name head up the list of any organized effort (even if it's me and you starting the organization) to do what Jesus exhorted his disciples not once, not twice, but three times in the last chapter of St. John, to feed his sheep. "Whensoever ye will," He said in Mark l4:7, "ye may do (the poor) good," and I do give money to feed the poor, and I do try to help everybody I can without expecting anything back, and if there's ever a bunch of Mexicans trying to storm the border you better believe I'll be there to be shot by somebody who writes like you because that scripture which says "he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal" certainly lives in me today.

. . . . . I'd like to see a form of this in your column or the letters to the editor space; why don't you call on a WATTS line or send me a line.

Sincerely,

 

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Saturday morning

. . . . . I guess a post-script is in order.

. . . . . Last night I saw some video tape of black riots in a major city's streets in South Africa, including savage attacks on any Caucasians caught in the maelstorm. These are people forbidden (I believe) to possess firearms, who are throwing themselves with sticks and stones against the armed and deadly white "enemy" in a physically hopeless, desperate, even fanatical attempt to end the obvious oppression. It called to mind another passage from Asimovs Foundation and Empire in which his fictional world, in a frightening parallel to our real one, is "falling apart of the triple disease of inertia, despotism, and maldistribution of the goods of the universe. . . .Inertia! Our ruling class knows one law: no change. Despotism! They know one rule: force. Maldistribution! They know one desire: to hold what is theirs. While others starve." And I picked up the paper and read your column again.

. . . . . "When the subject turns to money," you wrote, "keep your mouth shut. You've always got less than you think you need. And more than others think you deserve."

. . . . . Cynicism, by the way, was not something Jesus did not understand, as we witness by His saying "Make to yourselves friends of the riches of unrighteousness, that, when ye fail they may receive you into everlasting habitations." (Luke l6:9) And with the scorn and scars and humiliation heaped upon Him it is easy to understand a momentary sneering at their stupidity, and speaking to them in parables, and saying that time "lest . . .they . . .should be converted, and I should heal them."

. . . . . I know that there are organizations international in scope set up to feed the hungry and educate them in how to feed themselves, and that people donate a lot of tax-deductible money to support these organizations. And then I read in Proverbs 15:8 that "the sacrifice of the wicked is an abomination to the Lord", and I consider how many of the people who work for these organizations twist a proverb like "charity begins at home" as a rationalization for drawing a twelve-thousand-dollar ($12,000) a year salary and feeling, like you apparently do, underpaid.

. . . . . I want our organization to begin not in the home, but in everybody heart. Talk about a great game for the kids: Shelter And Feed Everybody (SAFE). It shouldn't take but a year or two and then we could go back to buying houses and cars and boats and vacations. Our legal system is an incredible jungle of trying to legislate morality (let that read financial security) for special interest groups; we need a grassroots movement to legislate morality, and all it would take is an ad hoc law of subsistence, a quasi-moratorium on mortgages, dividends, salaries, wages, rent, utility bills, everything it can be applied to, maybe just using a ninety per cent (90%) cut on payouts across the board; freezing prices; closing the stock market and other organs of speculation (all temporarily remember); and reminding everyone that "in the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer: (Jesus has) overcome the world" and WE CAN TOO.

. . . . . And its not just that we can, but that we must: "For all (the ways of the world) the Lord's anger is not turned away, but His hand is stretched out still." (Isaiah 5:25)


 

 

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. . . . . As for me, believe it or not, I'll volunteer to lead the way. If the two major gas companies who sent me credit cards will let me pay them ten percent of my purchases until the moratorium is lifted I will subsist, barring emergencies which would/should still just cost ten per cent, on fifty (50) dollars a month (which might be about what Im spending now every two weeks), I'm talking beans and rice and I will try to grow a garden come spring if all the wonderful people in the world let me live that long (since Gods love beats strongly in my heart).

. . . . . And before you run my name up a flag-pole or a cross or even mention it at a party, let me remind you that there are people seeking to work the will of God, but I have met many people whose hearts were hardened by the world. "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you," Jesus said in John l4, "not as the world giveth, give I unto you.. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." A parting gift to His disciples, which I fervently hope and pray all people may hold dear. And soon.

. . . . . And now, right after I warn you about casually spreading my name, I say I'm going to send a carbon copy of this to your editor and give copies to family members, and hope that they receive wide-spread dissemination and action. I, by the way, like Thoreau, have no desire for fame, or money or (worldly) love, but crave only truth. All I do is for the glory of God.














 

. . . . . actually this might be a late draft; thinking about it i seem to recall adding a paragraph about not signing it because i was a little paranoid and didn't want people to know it was my idea or something. now it reminds me of the wild-eyed prophet Richard Wilbur wrote about (here). and the scary thing is that this is the kind of stuff i know i'm still writing.

June 16, 2001 **********************************

. . . . . wanted to talk about how even my Zen Bible activities i realize can be dangerous. like a witch test or something. sorcery huh? I'm thinking about the last time I cranked up Nitty Gritty Dirt Band's "Will the Circle Be Unbroken Volume 2"; i wrote about this on the web site i think (well, not this); i was reading the Tao Te Ching and got into the commentaries in the back of my (maybe) 1986 edition somehow and someone's attention got me and i started trying to make a correction to the commentary. Well, it got real heavy, I could like feel people crowding around and i started turning back through the Tao and the music had stopped and i could hear the crowd closing in ("it's been a long time", stuff like that, all kind of ominous in tone) and i kept turning back in the book thinking to myself "I'm glad I know this book says 'More words count less'" and I found it and the release of tension was almost palpable.

. . . . . actually got pretty heavy at the Lucinda session, people not believing i'd take a chance like that i guess, but my Zen Bible thing happened real quick and there was like this intake of breath and then i was there and i was kind of relieved myself just to give you an idea of my life. like to flirt with death kind of, wrestled with God (or the devil) a good bit way back and did not win.

. . . . . oh yeah, i been around. back in '79 maybe i said to myself "this crazy world, i'm supposed to try and make friends out of it, and smoked a little fire and aimed for the Kremlin and said to those guys 'take a look at me, I'm God's own drunk and a dangerous man' and put a map of Mis'sippi on their wall like. Actually I remember writing stuff in Russian on the wall and trusting God that it was the right stuff. Really tried to do the map too; outline more like. Anyway, God knows I hope it was the right thing to do. if you saw my 'parable' here you know how much that wall crumblin' down has helped.

. . . . . and yeah, i've not been into the psychoactive drugs for a long time basically, quite the contrary, but feel like i'm somewhere else a lot like i did when i was smoking the herb bearing seed. kind of amazing.

. . . . . My doctor wants me to cut my beard off. He thinks the dreadlocks aren't the image I want to project. Probably before I got home from that visit I realized I need to tell him that I'm afraid the reason for the long hair and beard is because I need to make a few appearances as God. (and now actually i've done a few changes like gray hair and beard from Beverly Lane; maybe the wrong thing to try...another story. hope i don't have to tell it; said more than a few times i "hate" having to explain myself.) A lot of people have this image of a white guy with long maybe white hair and long beard too, huh?

. . . . . It was actually just this morning (it's June 21 now) that I thought about putting this in here, and this rather intense thunderstorm came sweeping through the area and I turned off my computer. So anyway, it wasn't the doctor thing i wanted to mention, but the thought that "Hey! now that would be a way for the prophecy of Jeremiah 31:31-34 (about people not being taught of God but knowing God), that would be a way for God to get the prophecy to come true: come down to the earth in the form of man, but not His son, Himself, and give His people another chance. One last chance. I mean, if people were to say, for example, 'Have you heard? Joel Parker is God! Heaven help us all!'" And look, if anybody thinks i'm blaspheming, please let me know @ joelparker@prodigy.net because i'm down with what Jesus said about the Holy Ghost in Luke 12:10. (if you don't know, it's what some call the unforgivable sin, like "unto him that blasphemeth against the Holy Ghost it shall not be forgiven." Red letters friends. Serious stuff.)

. . . . . I mean, talk about the fear of God. Kids learning to talk hear that God lives in Florida, he's like 50 years old, and he drives like a maniac sometimes. And Stephen Gaskins had it right about the yalugas (or whatever; see here). And it's nothing to worry about, just something to be prayerful about. Yeah, that might work huh? Maybe we'd even be interested in feeding everybody so they could put some of that survival-mode energy into love devotion and surrender. Watch and pray huh? What did Paul say, "we are saved by hope"?

June 19, 2001 ****************************

. . . . . anyway it was just the other day maybe that i did another computer Zen Bible (which opens to Isaiah 61:1 recall, and I moved the bar up so it had to be Old Testament, and this one kind of spoke to me. and maybe to you too. 'cause remember i can make nothing happen on my own, God doesn't either, it's His Spirit, His energy if you will, which moves through us and gives our lives meaning. wanted to mention that when i made a post to a newsgroup i visit about every day with what i thought was no revelation but, following a truly violent thunderstorm, a day of darkness indeed, apparently what i've been thinking of as the invisible republic is very alive but not exactly on my wavelength maybe. same thing with the Episcopal church revelation. Big thunderstorm out of nowhere. course it gets real complicated around here.

. . . . . a long time ago i told a fellow i liked to think that thunderstorms were manifestations of God getting people's attention. and back then i liked to think it was the fear of the Lord. back then being fifteen years ago. that's when i did my first Episcopal church investigation you might call it too. anyway, since then i've had many occasions to consider this, and more and more i think it can go either way but a lot of these manifestations are, i fear, outbreaks of (self)righteous indignation. and i say that hoping and praying that the light that is in me is not darkness.

. . . . . and all of this is to say that i would like to solicit prayers from the Invisible Republic and the Episcopalians, not to mention Democrats and Republicans, in a little (no, a lot) praying for humanity, and i would like the prayers to go straight to God that if i am a channel of energy that i be a channel of His Love. I try really hard to be devoted to a God of Love and Judgment( fear of this Benign Being and humility in the face of my personal reality [where did i mention that it's pretty easy to be humble knowing that the next person you see could pull out a piece and pop you?] are pretty easy for me) and the attitude i solicit is the benediction Bob Dylan gave us at the Grammy awards this year: "Peace, tranquility, and good will." Peace on earth and good will toward men, toward all people everywhere is the message delivered to the shepards so long ago by some magnificent-beyond-belief (believe it) voice(s) proclaiming in Luke 2:9-14 the good news.

. . . . . And hey, the tranquility is needed. Tranquilizers work. Don't forget to breath. because i'm asking you to help me do what maybe God told me to do, i.e., keep hurricanes off ameriKan coasts (why ameriKa you ask? well, don't ask me) again this season. ("again" you say? see here) Below is my Zen Bible search of today: (well, the part in the middle i didn't understand so i blocked it out <smile>; my interpretation is that Elijah is a type [they] call it) for folks like me who channel God's love, there's a possibility the altar can be repaired (that man can get up from his fall [or maybe i'm back in touch like nobody in a long long time]), and that's God telling me and you to do the hurricane thing again. this is just the way the Bible opened remember, and the bottom line is "he said to do it again" and we could do it again and maybe we will do it again. and naturally i don't want to put it in the form of a prophecy, 'cause there are too many factors now and i don't wanna wreck my standing as a potential prophet see.

. . . . . of course i realize that this could be the attention of scribes and pharisees seeking a sign, maybe there's even some kind of "let's see if we can get him to work on the Sabbath, then we'll know he's of the devil" involved here. maybe, you know, messing with Mother Nature. mankind hasn't done anything like that huh? the climate isn't really changing huh? and yeah, sure i'm paranoid, i'm asking for it. how can i not be paranoid, and not for just me but thee?

. . . . . Let me add something Lao Tsu wrote:

If kings and lords could harness (the Tao),
The ten thousand things 
(people) would naturally obey,
Heaven and earth would come together 
(heaven?) and gentle rain fall.
Men would need no more instruction
 (Jeremiah 31:34?)
and all things would take their course.

well, hopefully i'm done now. period.


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